The Red Rosy Bush.

I wish i was,
A red rosy bush,
By the pains of a seed.
And everytime,
My true love would pass by,
She could pick a rose of me.

I wish i was,
In some lonesome parlour.
Where the sun,
Don't ever shine.
If your heart,
Belongs to another,
Then it can't ever be mine.

I wish i had a golden box,
To keep, my true love in.
I'd take her out and I'd kiss her twice.
Then I'd put her back again.

-The Belafonte Folk Singers-

I like her. I really do. Even after all these months. It's hard to win her heart. But I'll keep trying. I do hope I don't sound obssesive because I really am not. Lol. I tried asking her out for valentine's day. I did. She said "oh well :)" and then called in the night to say she couldn't make it because of some class enterprise thing. There are just so many things going through my mind. She just doesn't like me. she got my hopes high and crushed it. or she really meant that "yes" but the forces of nature and fate are just against me. yep. that might be it. fate's against me. ( I do sound screwed up don't I? ) If yeh do read this , I would really hope you'd be the valentine of this young fool, your rag doll. =}
J.c.XD

I am so sorry...

This, is to all i have loved and love. To all who have befriended me and abandoned me. I am so sorry. I am so sorry i couldn't be the person i want to be. The person whom all want me to be. i wanted so badly to be the person who could be there for everyone. there for everyone when they needed a crying shoulder. a helping hand. and i guess you get what i'm trying to say. i've failed. i've lost strengh. somehow. this. is just an apology to everyone i know. call me pathetic and lame. but at least once or twice in our lives we'd be as such. sigh. today, i took my dogs out for walk at west coast park! now i'm darn tired and tomorrow i have scouts. hafta wear my whole uniform again. i have to go now. dinner. goin out. haha.
J.c. XD

Love me?

I actually celebrate CNY. ok this blog is gonna be used to post my writings. when i feel like it. today has been boring th0ugh. went to my aunt's house. sat down waited for them. they came. everyone was chattin. one group about polytechnics and courses and the other group, cars. me? left out. cuz i'm in neither age group. totally sucked. so i just watched tv, some chinese show i hardly understand ( i dun learn chinese even though i'm chinese) and i fell asleep. woke up, we went to eat at mcdonalds for lunch (so boring). surprised it was open. my cousin was with us. after lunch, went to grandparent's house. greeted them, did the usual exchange of oranges. chatted a bit. teased my grandpere. we said we're gonna bring him for a togo(drinking) session. sigh. too bad we can't. he's suffering from a stroke. ok. so after that, ame back home. and my cousin's here too. she's doin her work. bio i think. better not disturb her. hahaha. XD


Love me?

Love be blind?
Oh ye fool...
Love be blind?
Oh please...

Love be blind?
Ye be blind...
Love be blind?
Oh just cease your rambling!

Love be kind?
Maybe...
Love be kind?
Pray thee think so...

Love be kind?
Ask no more...
Love be kind?
If thou thinketh so...

Love me?
Must I?
Love me?
Can't I insist?

Love me?
Thinketh i shalt...
Love me?
Wait ye must...

-J.c. 29th January 2006