Be my muse

Today...

2006-02-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

i kinda woke up late this mornin and rushed to the bus stop. but by the time i got there i knew i had missed the 985. so i took a cab to boon keng and when i alighted the cab and settled at the bus stop, she got off her bus! just nice! lol. walked her to school again. worried cuz she wasn't feelin well today. nauseated. hope she's alright. too ba dcouldn't call her cuz i was busy tonight. and now's a bit too late. haha. anw that's all for now. oh yes. when i reached school, i suddenly missed her. well that's all.
J.c. XD

write me away,
write me tonight.

Today... haha...

2006-02-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

ok... woke up in the mornin, usual stuff. bus stop. fell asleep on the bus, reached boon keng and i saw her. so i got off and took the bus with her. got off at her stop and walked her to her school. walked back to the bus stop and took the 31. thought i was gonna be late but i wasnt! haha. school started off ok. had a wee bit of gastric. recess came and i went to eat. went back to class and my stomach was like worse. dunno how yeh get gastric after you eat but yeah. i was reeling over in pain and i fell off my chair in class. so i took charcoal tablets and went to sleep. slept through chem until mt. had to walk down to another class. it was fine until i reached class. stomach went nuts again. sch ended, i went to the canteen and ate lunch. stomach was instantly better after that. haha. went for legion of mary, it ended at 3.45. so just nice, i told her i'd get her all the chocs she wanted so i bought 3 boxes of chocs for her from parkway. then i went to her school to meet her and when i got there she came out at the same time. just nice. lol. walked to the bus stop and everyone else from her school was like starin at me or somethin cuz i was the only odd one out at the bus stop. took the 31. so crowded. i dun really like the crowd. we got off at boon keng and just behind the 31, was another 31. so we took it to toa payoh and an mrt. lol. i just hope that i'd be worthy of her - guess i'll put it that way. lol.
J.c.XD

love me please.
my heart longs for ye...

Visiting is so boring.....

2006-02-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

Cny is so boring... just visited one of my relatives today. had dinner 1st, reached there at 7.30pm. only us so just sat and waited. then my cousin came. haha. there was some big dog in the house, kept barking at us. my cousin was like jumping everytime the dog barked. haha. soon, other cousins arrived. dog went barking mad. barking all night long. wonder where they get their energy from. lol. i and my other cousin stayed outside the house. then the next door neighbour kids were playin with fire. stupid. they were playin with fire under a dead tree. my cousin and i just zoned out. just like talkin. then 1st cousin left, then the rest left, and my family left. so boring... just got home. tomorrow i'm doing children's liturgy in church. part of my pastoral attachment. just readin the bible to kids. hope it won't be boring. so tired. gonna sleep soon.
J.c. XD

Dost thee love me so?
Pray thee say so...
Pray thee feel so...

Oh Man... Groan...

2006-02-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday (wed) was a total wipeout. Got home late, had dinner, bathed, and i knocked out on the couch watching news. Mum then screamed at me to go sleep so i did. i walked in to my room, turned on the aircon and fell asleep the moment I touched the bed. Mum comes in and screams at me again to turn off the lights and take off my specs. Today in sch, I totally knocked out in class. Especially in English. Talkin about some passage in the textbook and i fell asleep and when I woke up, the teacher was talkin about alcoholic drinks, liquor and wine. I was like wth does alcohol have to do with the amount of food in thw world (passage) ? After that, had a physics test. So easy. Finished the paper in 6 mins. lol. Had photo taking for sch record. After sch, had to meet up with the other sec 4 scouts cuz had to chop wood for outdoor cooking tomorrow. Only that we can't use any utencils. I just got home. And i found out today in sch that i'm gonna have to do 2 prayers. In the mornin in front of the sch. like shux. one in term 2 and 1 in term 4. groans* ok. gonna sign off now. Too tired to write any poem tonight.
J.c.XD

The Red Rosy Bush.

2006-01-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

I wish i was,
A red rosy bush,
By the pains of a seed.
And everytime,
My true love would pass by,
She could pick a rose of me.

I wish i was,
In some lonesome parlour.
Where the sun,
Don't ever shine.
If your heart,
Belongs to another,
Then it can't ever be mine.

I wish i had a golden box,
To keep, my true love in.
I'd take her out and I'd kiss her twice.
Then I'd put her back again.

-The Belafonte Folk Singers-

I like her. I really do. Even after all these months. It's hard to win her heart. But I'll keep trying. I do hope I don't sound obssesive because I really am not. Lol. I tried asking her out for valentine's day. I did. She said "oh well :)" and then called in the night to say she couldn't make it because of some class enterprise thing. There are just so many things going through my mind. She just doesn't like me. she got my hopes high and crushed it. or she really meant that "yes" but the forces of nature and fate are just against me. yep. that might be it. fate's against me. ( I do sound screwed up don't I? ) If yeh do read this , I would really hope you'd be the valentine of this young fool, your rag doll. =}
J.c.XD

I am so sorry...

2006-01-31T19:45:00.000+08:00

This, is to all i have loved and love. To all who have befriended me and abandoned me. I am so sorry. I am so sorry i couldn't be the person i want to be. The person whom all want me to be. i wanted so badly to be the person who could be there for everyone. there for everyone when they needed a crying shoulder. a helping hand. and i guess you get what i'm trying to say. i've failed. i've lost strengh. somehow. this. is just an apology to everyone i know. call me pathetic and lame. but at least once or twice in our lives we'd be as such. sigh. today, i took my dogs out for walk at west coast park! now i'm darn tired and tomorrow i have scouts. hafta wear my whole uniform again. i have to go now. dinner. goin out. haha.
J.c. XD

Love me?

2006-01-29T16:49:00.000+08:00

I actually celebrate CNY. ok this blog is gonna be used to post my writings. when i feel like it. today has been boring th0ugh. went to my aunt's house. sat down waited for them. they came. everyone was chattin. one group about polytechnics and courses and the other group, cars. me? left out. cuz i'm in neither age group. totally sucked. so i just watched tv, some chinese show i hardly understand ( i dun learn chinese even though i'm chinese) and i fell asleep. woke up, we went to eat at mcdonalds for lunch (so boring). surprised it was open. my cousin was with us. after lunch, went to grandparent's house. greeted them, did the usual exchange of oranges. chatted a bit. teased my grandpere. we said we're gonna bring him for a togo(drinking) session. sigh. too bad we can't. he's suffering from a stroke. ok. so after that, ame back home. and my cousin's here too. she's doin her work. bio i think. better not disturb her. hahaha. XD

Love me?

Love be blind?
Oh ye fool...
Love be blind?
Oh please...

Love be blind?
Ye be blind...
Love be blind?
Oh just cease your rambling!

Love be kind?
Maybe...
Love be kind?
Pray thee think so...

Love be kind?
Ask no more...
Love be kind?
If thou thinketh so...

Love me?
Must I?
Love me?
Can't I insist?

Love me?
Thinketh i shalt...
Love me?
Wait ye must...

-J.c. 29th January 2006